My Prayer

Father, I praise your name, I honour you with your glory. Father forgive me if in the past I have doubted your intentions. If I questioned your love and understanding. If I blamed you for my misfortunes. Forgive me Father if I was in so much anger and hatred in the past, that it went beyond the happy memories and the love I used to have. Forgive me Father if I only take the time to speak to you when I am in my deepest need. If I forget to go and praise you in your house. Father thank you for all the blessings you have given me in my whole 29 years. For the life, the love, family and friends. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayers.

Father I thank you for the chances you have given me to be a more better person. For the guidance and protection. Most of all, thank you for carrying the load when I can no longer go on. In times of my weakness, you are there to give me strength. In times of my sorrow, you are there to give me someone to make me smile. In times of loneliness, you are there to give me comfort. In times when I'm in tears, you are always ready to wipe them dry. In my times of happiness, you make a step back, though you never leave, you only wants to see me in my happiest moment alone. With you I always feel I am most loved.

Father I know you always love it when you see your children asking for so many things. You always love it when we need you at all times. Though sometimes with all the blessings you have given me, I tell myself.. I could not ask for more. But human as I am, I still end up asking.
Father, please carry on protecting me, my family and friends.. Eric and his family. Keep us all safe and healthy.. Don't ever let love leave our hearts.. Please bless my relationship with Eric, I know he came into my life for a reason. And I know why things are taking its time. For the first time in my life. I wasn't rushing things. Thank you for finally making me realize that I can never rush love. Your will be done at all times, Father. I know you only want to see me happy and contented. I will follow whatever it is that is destined by You. Amen...

Holiday in Heaven...

i always thought that running away from pain and worries is always the answer to all the questions i have in mind. it always worked for me, i'm afraid. in the past, i ran away from the deepest cut i had. moved on three years after got over it completely. six long years i waited to love again, when i did, got hurt easily, ran away from it once more. tried to find solstice from my own home. i was right, home will always be the best place to mend your broken heart. enjoy the views, the hot weather, friends laughters, family's happy memories.

whilst i was in an island from home, enjoying the blue waters and the view. i can't say i have forgotten the pain completely, as there are times when i can still remember it. but then again, time heals all wounds. i carried on walking forward, meeting new people, enjoying company of old friends whom i haven't seen for ages. deep in my heart i wished that one day.. somehow.. someway.. God will lead someone astray and i will find him. and if i do.. i will keep him and would never do anything to hurt him.

as my holiday was nearly ending, a blessing came my way.. i know God answers prayers, but i was not expecting Him to answer mine that quick. though as they say... all the things we asked for or we wanted never comes in one package.. He gave me someone to care for and to inspire me, to make me smile.. but He made sure that this time i won't fall just like that.. He wanted me to take things slowly this time.. to take my time.. our time.. to get to know each other better and to make sure what we feel will be the right feeling and will be on the right time and right place.. now i can say i am happy though we're not committed with each other at this point in time.. but thats the irony of life.. and God is working on us... on our future... Thanks for answering my prayer.. and for blessing me with someone like Eric... :)