What is Holding on?Is it when you hang on to one thing you think you can never live without?Or is it loving still even if you know you can never be loved back?Whatever it really means, for me Holding on is, Pain and Happiness… Why? hmmm … Let’s put it this way, You are in love, with someone who doesn’t love you the way you wanted to be loved. And you already know you can never have him, but still you pursued whatever you feel. You feel happy coz you see him, you talk to him, you see him smile, hear him laugh, he shared his life with you… But you feel pain coz he shares how happy he was with his only love. But no matter how painful it is you’re still holding the grip so tight that you feel like you can’t let go because you are too scared to feel the worst pain you can imagine. The pain of losing him. So you would rather have the pain with happiness than the pain of losing someone. The question is… Until when can you hang on to someone who can’t love you? Until when can you embrace the pain? Until when will you feel happy? Are you sure he would stay with you forever? All those questions are mostly ignored by us, coz we normally don’t want to entertain thoughts that can awaken us from asleep.
With Holding on comes Letting Go… is letting go really the answer when you are hurting? Now this is one hard task indeed. You are fighting with no one else but yourself. You have you mind and heart fighting, and this may confuse you of what is really the right thing to do. Would you let go and be in your worst pain? Or hang on and sacrifice? Hard ain’t it? Hmmmm… But it is only simple really. Fight if it is worth fighting. Hold on if you feel he is the one. Embrace the pain if you think someday he can learn to love you back. Otherwise, Let go…coz if you know inside you that he can never love you back no matter what, then no reason for you to hold on and sacrifice for he will never be the one. And what’s the point of fighting for him when he is not worth fighting for?Or should i say.. what’s the use of fighting for someone who never gives you the reason to fight? To let go is one brave thing to do. Coz you are trying to defeat one part of yourself. Let it be you mind or your heart. Fighting with your ownself is one of the hardest thing to do. But I am so sure that if you will be courageous enough and strong enough, you can win the fight, and can save yourself from more pain.
So the saying goes "Live and let Live", this is what I always think of. I have a life to live. And i intend to live it and fill it with all happy moments. Let all the bad and sad moments be gone.Let all those wrong people vanish. Start anew and live life the you want it. Remember…life is too short to waste it over someone WASTED.
*winks*




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