Will I??

I once felt so complete, so happy and so full of life. A feeling that I hoped will last forever, but never did… I have struggled to move forward. I have tried my best not to cry. I have given my all just to forget the past. And I thought I made it… I thought I did it… And then one day, the past came haunting me like a ghost. Trying to shake my newly regained strength… And I must admit, I was shaken. With just a simple hello, I was shaken… How stupid can I get huh? But I think that’s what it’s all about in this life… to be crumpled and to be shaken by something so painful in the past, so we’ll know how to cross the crossroad. To break down .. or to break through? To give in or to back off? Not very easy.. And at this point of my life I am very confused..I don’t know which way to go.. or should i let myself continue with my journey alone.. or to hold on to the hand reaching out for me.. but the questions that’s i can’t get rid of are.. Will I allow myself to get hurt again? Am I willing to be in so much pain again? Am i willing to go thru it all once more? I guess… not…